I’ve been offline and generally bedridden for about a week and a half. It drove Mr. V nuts, and it’s driving my anxiety and depression into a new realm. There are two major things I’m fighting: the first is wildly fluctuating blood pressure, the second is widespread pain with no known cause.
The chronic pain has been a known issue for years, but in the last few weeks it has spiked up and stayed there, around 7 and 8 out of 10. It’s focused largely on my low back, which means any movement is achy, and the hardest part is not knowing why. I have two different painkillers, but neither have made any difference. I’ve attended my physical therapy each week and that seems to make everything worse, which is confusing my therapist.
Then on Friday everything just.… stopped hurting. (yay?)
Also for no apparent reason.
So now I’m back up at the café working, but I’m in constant anxiety and I’m quite certain everything is going to come back without warning.
The second issue, my blood pressure, has been a minor concern for years, but has recently ramped up to become a Very Big Problem. Like the pain, there’s no known cause, which is driving me nuts. Every day my blood pressure drops unexpectedly (when I’m walking, when I’m sitting, when I’m laying down), which causes my heart rate to spike up over 160 and 170, very high. I hit 184 yesterday while sitting and reading a magazine. The drops in my blood pressure have caused me to black out before, and one time I stopped breathing. Ivead to think what could have happened. So, this is not something I’m willing to let run its course. If I black out while driving or walking around.… well, there isn’ going to be an issue because I’m talking to the doctors.
Between these two issues, my past two weeks have felt like I’m underwater with the flu while some 10 year old jumps on my back for fun. It’s been miserable, and made more so by the lack of information or understanding. It is extremely frustrating to fight something you can’t identify. I’ve been thankful to lean on Mr. V during this process.
Today I have an appointment with a rheumatologist in the afternoon. I’m going to hand my entire medical history over to her and hope she has something to say other than ’welp, that sucks.’
You will, of course, be the first to know what’s up.